Wednesday, September 17, 2008

An Introduction... (Day 1) (FEB 21, 2011)

This project is about applying the teachings of the law of attraction and related positive thinking knowledge of life transformation into my life.   Here on day one,  February 21, 2011,  I will list myself a set of goals.  I will work on those goals every day using the techniques that I have learned and that I will learn throughout the length of this experiment.     Here we go...

My name is Hans Christian Gonzalez,  I was named after the writer Hans Christian Andersen and I was born in the Dominican Republic.  I moved to this country in 1992 at the age of 18.    I am the third of four children;  Sandra Maribel, Biembenida, me, and Rosa.  I am 37 years old.  I have been separated from my wife Olga since 2007.   I have a thirteen year old daughter named Hannah Khristina.

I went to Baruch College but never finished.  I still have plans on finishing my college education in the near future.

My parents divorced when I was about 10 years old.  My father remarried and now he has three additional children.  My mother was never able fall in love again.  Two of my sisters live here in the US.  Biembenida, the second one lives close to my house in New York City, and Rosa, the youngest one, lives in Virginia, with her boyfriend and three children.  My oldest sister, Maribel,  lives in Salcedo, the Dominican Republic with her children.  I have not spoken to her in years.  She is ver problematic and self-destructive.

I am 37 years old.  Soon to be 38 this year (2011).   I have not yet completed my divorce with Olga.  My relationship with the rest of my family is very distant.  I don't talk to my mother nor my father every day, and I rarely visit them.  We are a somewhat disconnected family.  I only speak with Rosa every once in a blue moon, and my sister, the one that lives here in New York, I see the most often, but our relationship is not as I would like it to be.

Right now, what I do, how I relate to people, the friends that I have,  my relationship with my family,  and myself is not 100% how I would like it to be.  I seem to have lost the ability nurture friendships and my finances are, at this moment, in complete chaos.  This steming from the fact that in January of 2009, I lost a very lucrative position at Bergdorf Goodman,  and since then, havent been able to make what I made working for that company,  making me unable to pay my bills on time, save money, or buy things.
To top it all of, I am about 26 thousand dollars in credit card debt, of which I can't make payments.

The next 365 days are going to be a challenge for me.  I was not born on this earth to be a failure, or merely to bring my daughter Hannah into existence.  I wasn't born to be a slave to my finances and to be deprived of the good things of life:  Love, friendship, respect,  adventure,  freedom,  good health.  
All I want is, what everyone deep down in their heart want:  to be happy.   Defining what happiness is, and attaining it is the purpose of this new adventure.  I promise to work very hard on it every day, and to share my progress, and failures with you along the way.

From reading what I have written,  it is easy to determine what those goals are:

1- A better relationship with all my family members:  my mother, my father, my sisters, my half brothers
     and sisters, aunts, cousins, uncles, etc.

2- To state it simply: taking control of my finances;  getting out of debt, adopting the habit of saving and
    setting goals with my money.

3- Completly divorce my wife.  I deserve to have love in my life and
    will not let my circunstances nor chance to decide whether or not to meet someone new.  

4- To finish the professional photography course that I bought and never completed from the NYIP
     and to be registered in college by August 2011.

5-  Have a rich circle of friendships, and the freedom to enjoy life to the fullest.  Being thankful for all
     my gifts, and really respectful of other people.  Being respectful of myself and the way I conduct
    how I live my life;  in other words,  I will be a friend to myself first and a friend to other people.

6-  I am going to better my relationship with my body by excercising, doing yoga and eating well.
     I am going to sleep better,  learn how to be better handle stress.

7- I am going to be a very successful photographer.  I am going to undertake the building of my
    portfolio, the buying of new necessary equipment,  and new technical skills a very serious matter
    which will allow me to help me be financially independent by doing what I love to do and not what
    have to do.

8- My relationship with God will also improve.

Thanks for reading.