(15-365) The difference between positive and a negative mentality

Today was my first day at Saks.  After spending three days at home off from work I realized how great it is to be away from such a negative environment.  Having the habit of thinking negative thoughts is a very hard thing to come out of.  After all that I have read about the power of negative thoughts, the law of attraction, and the dynamics of getting what one wants,  it is mind blowing that I let myself get drawn to that horrible way of being.

For five months or so, I was in misery.  I couldn't see past my plight.  I was moneyless,  powerless, depressed,  and in want.  I told my story to everyone that lent me his or her ear.  I dwelt on the feeling of not being able to do what I wanted for a very long time.  I didn't even have money to buy gas.  But when I started changing the way I talked, a feeling of power started to emerge.  

I can clearly see now how powerful thought is.  Most people, when they talk very negative always justify their perception of reality as the real thing.   If you were to tell them that they were worsening their experience by the words that came out of their mouth, they would tell you that they are not negative people,  but realists.   What they don't know, is that what they see is in effect a creation of their minds.

Today I went to work with a positive outlook, and surprisingly had the best day I had in months.  I could still hear in the background the negative conversations of my co-workers,  and saw how they fed off from that misery.   I chose not to take part of it.  I communicated with my customers; impregnating a very positive, humorous personality and leaving them feeling a little better than what they felt when they first saw me.  It was good. I plan to stay that way.  

There is no reason for me to fall back on the habit of being miserable.  I have plenty of things to sell on eBay, the good health,  and energy to avoid that to happen.  I am perfectly capable not only on having enough to survive,  but on having control of my finances once and for all.  I am now building my future and my resources.  I thank God for being  the provider of my life.

I am very happy that I changed my diet.  I once heard that the people of a rich neighborhood and the ones from a poor neighborhood think differently because they eat differently.  Are people's lives a product of their diets or are their diets a product of their lives?  I think both are very connected.  When you change one the other is changed as well.  Change does not happen automatically.  But with increased strength, mental energy and good health, it is fair to say that our actions, however trivial, tend to have a powerful effect in our lives.

I have to make it a habit to communicate with my family.  Tomorrow I am going to start texting them more often and communicate through that first,   then little by little I will include calling them and checking up on them.  The ultimate goal in that respect will be to spend more time with most of them.

Thanks for reading, good night.


Hans.