(21-365) Visualization

Visualization is very simple:  See youself as you wish to be and imagine having the things you wish to have.   It is evident, that if you can't see yourself owning that home,  having those friends, or marrying that kind of person,  your chances of bringing those things to your experience are slim.  This post is about visulation.

Besides working at Saks in the shoe department,  I am a photographer.  I have been taking pictures for quite some time, however, I haven't managed to make it a career.   Some time ago, I started a blog  with the intention of sharing my experiences of becoming a full-time photographer.  The blog took a turn and became an outlet for my need to share my views on areas such as philosphy, psychology, etc.  In other words,  it failed in its primary intention.

But I haven't stopped taking pictures.  the thing that has helped me continue is the feedback that I receive from the people that look at my photographs.  They really like my eye, and say I am a very talented photographer.  I could have been  a full-time photographer already.    I have had the money and education materials to make that a reality, but something in me,  kept me from making my dream of becoming independent not come true.

That thing is my self-image,  how I see myself.  I know that when I really want something to be done, and something right,  I get it done.   For example,  I've had had made lots of business cards in the past, and they have not been well perceived.   Two weeks ago,  I decided to create a truly remarkable business card,  I did it and it is that one that you see in the picture.  It folds down, and it has another image in the back, it is a gorgeous business card.

I worked with a  semi-professional Canon Digital SLR camera.   Canon introduced a full-frame SLR digital camera two or three years ago. It was a dream of mine to own one, but didn't think it was wise to spend 2,500-3,000usd on a camera if I wasn't making any money in it.  For me,  owning such camera was a sign that I was already a professional photographer and that I was making the money to justify making such an investment, I was wrong!

After receiving my income tax check,  I was about to make the same mistake with the money I did in 2009 by blowing  it all on trips to the Dominican Republic.  Instead,  I decided to buy the Canon 5D Mark II full-frame professional camera.     I believe it was a very smart decision.

Having a professional camera makes me look like the professional that I am,   which allows me to justify charging more for my services that I deserve as a result.  I know that I have to buy more equipment, and that there are a lot of other things that need to be done,  but one thing for certain, I need to see myself succeeding.

If deep down inside I don't feel that I deserve what I want,  no matter how many cameras I buy, or how much money I have at my disposal, the odds of me becoming a professional photographer are pretty much very slim.  I need see myself as having all the equipment that I need and also working as a truly professional photograher.

A few months ago, I posted a picture of the camera that I wanted on the wall in my bedroom.  At the time I did it I was going through some huge financial problems, frankly, I didn't know how I was going to be able to afford that camera.  Two or three months later,  it is in my hands.  


Thanks for reading, good night.

Hans.