(18-365) Fear

Fear is a big subject to talk about in just one entry, however, the type of fear that I am talking about is the one that prevents us from expressing ourselves with authority and self-confidence; in other words, fearless.

Fear is a huge problem of mine.  It is embedded in my speech and manifests itself in how I speak,  what I speak and how I express myself.   I want to bring attention to this issue of fear so that I can have a better understanding of its effects in my life.

When I write something,  I make sure that I let my thoughts come out and not think of it too much until I finish saying what I want to say.  Before I let anyone to read it, I first proof read what I wrote,  and fix all the mistakes.  In talking, however,  I don't have that luxury.  My words are taken as the final product as soon as they come out of my mouth.  I can easily see how important it is to really think of what I am going to say before I say it.

Even thought I do this sometimes, the habit of thinking before talking is not in my repertoire.  I don't necessarily refer to the words and sentences that we use in our every day language,  but the feelings behind our sentences.  This is especially evident when I ask questions or make requests.  If fear is overwhelming,  anything that comes out of my mouth is bound to be misunderstood due to the fact that fear forces my words to be unclear  and my actions to be bizzare; weird to comprehend.

From now on, every time I decide to do something,  I will willingly commit my heart to it so I can get it.    Next time I find someone very attractive,  I will go for the price and not chicken out.  If photography is my next thing,  I will give my heart to it.  I will do what I need to do to succeed.  I will talk to the right people and get all my questions answered so that I will have no more excuse to be extremely successful.  I will not fear success anymore.


Thanks for reading.
 

P.S.  Sorry for all the "I's"

Hans.